Wow I didn't realize I had so much crying to do

So, I'm watching The Chronicles of Narnia the Voyage of the Dawn Treader and I realize I am really not over crying yet.  I am sobbing throughout this entire movie.  I am sure that's not a normal reaction.  I fell apart right when Ashland tells Lucy that she doesn't realize her worth.  That hit home for me.  I am just struggling in this sea of crap.  I'm trying to hold my head above water but on days like today I was just sinking to the bottom.  I have been told that I need to do something for myself.  The movie was suppose to be that, but I'm afraid it didn't work that way!  There are just so many things to cry over.  Grief surrounds me just waiting to burst out like it did today.  Honestly, if it weren't for my animals getting hungry I would probably still be on the floor crying.  I don't know how I can go on like this.  Lord, I hope you have better plans than this for me cause this sucks!