She's gone.....my mother is gone..........

I have no more feelings... I am a zombie now normally and when I'm not I am crying.  I miss her so much! People just don't realize how close I was to my mother.. she was my best friend!  She was my family.. my only connection to my family back home.  She was a HUGE part of my life.  I don't know what to feel.. I don't know how to act.. I honestly don't know what to live for.  I'm not suicidal but if a car ran me over right now I wouldn't really care.  Everything else in my life is menial.  The only things keeping me going are my pets and my job.. neither of them can I take with me to heaven and neither of them are big defining elements in life.. but yet that is what my existence right now boils down to.  She is gone...