I have a strange feeling.. It's not a feeling I've had before only after my ex Bozo left. I felt him coming home. I don't know why, but yesterday and last night I felt like I did when waiting for him to come home. It was almost like I knew or expected him to come home after a hard days work. Very strange. I don't know where that came from. Especially since I'm very aggravated and upset that that insensitive retard knows that my mother has passed away and never even sent a card or a sorry or nothing. That's a man that is solely focused on him and his wants and needs. Very selfish and self centered. So, knowing this I certainly hope it's not foresight.
I am also starting conversations with my mother. I know she's gone but I can here her as if she's here. I don't know if it's just me knowing what she'd say or not so I find sometimes I am answering her back. Very strange I know. Anyway, I just wanted to document my feelings to check what they are. I really hope, unless he's changed significantly, that it's not foresight.
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