Dream

Ok, so last night I had a dream Mom was here.  I drempt she was dead but here in her body still.  We talked, shared what's been going on and she basically didn't want to leave me alone.  Then suddenly she started getting sick. She was running a fever and come to find out it was an illusion I was living.  Actually, the reality was I had a dead, rotting body in the house and I didn't even know it.  She was still attached to her body and that was what was causing my Mom's fever in my world of illusion.  I drempt that she didn't want to go.  That she still wanted to be connected because I needed her.  I had to say I let you go Mom.  I'd be happier knowing she's in heaven than hanging on for me.  I ended up waking up and saying those same words again.  I do hope she's not staying here but that she's gone to heaven and when she is here it's as an angel, not a ghost.