Fear of the future

This is where I am... fearful of a life without my Mother.  Yes, I can't imagine having a life without her input.  I talked to her at least twice a day every day.  Now, I have to figure out life without her input.  She was my best friend, my confidant, my safe haven.  Now, I'm in a world that doesn't care, doesn't listen and attacks at every turn. <sigh> will I ever find a haven again?